Results came in last week and unfortunately I didn't pass the exam to be a Nationally Certified Interpreter. I got a "poor" on the performance part and passed the interview part, but adding them together it still equals a fail on the exam. Sorry my thoughts are kind of all over the page but I just wanted to get everything I have been feeling out there. Please don't judge ;). I'm going to skip the whole story of me taking my exam because I already wrote about it in August. But you might want to read it if you haven't because it has the first half of the story in it.
I am doing better now but honestly I was really confused at first. I know that there is a reason and a plan from Heavenly Father of why I didn't pass because I felt SO good and KNEW He was helping me during the exam. (Readying my post about being in Utah will give you part of the test day story). I know Heavenly Father knew what a life long dream it was of mine to finish what I had started as a teen with my Associates in Interpreting. I had planned on becoming certified and have that as a backup in case I needed to go to work.
I have felt so much love and support from Him this whole time and still do. I feel like he let me have a great test to feel like I had "left my best on the floor", and now I need to turn to him more to figure out what I'm supposed to be focusing on instead. He has greater things planned for my life than I can imagine. I don't know a lot right now what is next, but I do know that I gave my best but for whatever reason I am not supposed to pass right now....or maybe ever.
Still it was SO HARD for me at first. I felt like I had "sacrificed" so much for my family and it wasn't bad to want this one dream of my own to come true since it could also be a help to the family if needed and I was trying to further my education. So why? I also felt that once again I had come so close to making a goal happen, but not close enough to make it a reality. Like giving up Miss Rocky Mountain and competing in Miss Utah, or not touring with my dance team to focus on classes that would be more applicable during Jason and my engagement. I feel bad to admit I was even thinking these things last week, but I was. Couldn't I have this dream from childhood happen since it would help my family and I had "sacrificed" many other dream already?
I decided to go for a walk with the kids and turn on Pandora. The first song that came on was "Praise God From Who All Blessings Flow". Then the next one was "Come thou Fount of Every Blessing"! I was reminded that my so called "sacrifices" were not really sacrifices at all!!!! I had been given SOOO much more than the little insignificant things I had given up. More than I could have ever imagined for myself. My incredible husband and my sealing to him for ETERNITY in the Temple, my beautiful inspiring children, all the ways I have grown and have come closer to my Savior...God really was And is guiding my path to him. I need to remember to Praise God from whom ALL BLESSINGS FLOW! The next song that came on was "Lead Me Home" by Hillary Weeks. It was beautiful and expressed exactly the prayer I had in my heart. http://grooveshark.com/#!/s/Lead+Me+Home/tlSKO?src=5
I know my Heavenly Father is still molding me to be what He needs me to be. I don't know everything right now, like whether to keep my major or switch it to a more marketable one, or maybe even Family History Research! Either way I know Heavenly Father does have something else in store that my limited vision can't see yet. I had an amazing talk with my mom and she reminded me that when we meet the Creator of the Universe, He won't ask to see our papers or certificates or a list of all the goals we made into a reality even!! He knows our hearts and LOVES US MORE THAN WE KNOW and will be able to see His image in our countenance.
Right now I just need to thank him for everything he is teaching me in this beautiful twisty journey of life, knowing that he is preparing a path to lead me closer to him.
Monday, October 13, 2014
Friday, October 10, 2014
September: The D
K so we weren't living really in "the D" Its more like 20 miles North of Detroit in Clinton Township Michigan...but The D is just fun to say lol.
Anyways. So our trip cross country with the kids wasn't as crazy as thought it was going to be. We stopped the first night in Colorado at a motel and the Second night we spent in Indianan with some of our best friends Amanda and Jogie Miller. We rush out in the morning so we could get to our own apartment in Michigan before they closed. OR SO WE THOUGHT!!! I guess the way they rent apartments there is if you are staying for any part of the month then you owe rent for the whole month. We were going to be there from the 6th of September to the 4th of October which meant we were paying for the full month of September AND October...which we couldn't do. After trying to figure things out with them, long story short, we found ourselves homeless in Michigan lol.
I am super flexible so we looked up an motel and figured we would just make it our home unless something else came up. The first motel we went to Jason put a big fat veto on lol. Something about it being way to sketchy or something. So we tried another one further north. It was better and it had a complimentary breakfast and a laundry mat! I could totally make that work. Just use the kitchen there for making meals and I could even wash all the clothes at the laundry mat. We would be a bit crowded with only one room but we were craving some family time anyways right! Sadly all the breakfast was was coffee and the laundry mat was broken. But at least we had a home that felt safe.
The next morning we went to church and it felt SO right. I instantly fell in love with everyone in the ward. We had felt that for some reason we were supposed to do a rotation and our 6 month core in Michigan. Even though I really really REEEAALLY wanted to stay closer to family. Showing up on Sunday and feeling so at peace with everything confirmed to me that we were really supposed to be there. The Corlesses even invited us over for games and dinner that night. How did they know we looved playing games...and only had leftover pizza waiting in the motel for dinner lol?
After church a brother came up to me and said that they have a basement that would have space for us and a kitchen that we could rent!! On Monday we checked it out. Heather, Mark and their kids were SOO awesome...and we moved everything in that night. They seriously were such LIFE SAVERS!!
Everything after that was much more low key and yet crazy and fun. Jason loved the rotation because of how they teach and actually care about the residents, the schedule, and what they focused on in the hospital. I had so much fun with Heather and the other girls in the ward! We checked out the Apple Cider farms, had a bow making party, and had plenty of dance parties on their new wood floor :). I loved having little girls around that I could teach dance to, and Aiden had a "twin" that he could be a partner in crime with. Mark...excuses me "The Mark" got us all tickets to the Tigers game. ;) That one's for you Mark and Heather ;). Heather seriously became a second sister to me. We are both totally crazy and love to sing and dance. She helps in YW, and that month we brainstormed ideas on how to change the words to the song "I'm all about that base" to "I'm all bout being chaste" hahahaha I still have the words to that song stuck in my head! I'm so excited to be able to go back in December to my friends there and "settle down" till May.
Oh and we actually have everything lined up Apartment-wise for when we get back.
Anyways. So our trip cross country with the kids wasn't as crazy as thought it was going to be. We stopped the first night in Colorado at a motel and the Second night we spent in Indianan with some of our best friends Amanda and Jogie Miller. We rush out in the morning so we could get to our own apartment in Michigan before they closed. OR SO WE THOUGHT!!! I guess the way they rent apartments there is if you are staying for any part of the month then you owe rent for the whole month. We were going to be there from the 6th of September to the 4th of October which meant we were paying for the full month of September AND October...which we couldn't do. After trying to figure things out with them, long story short, we found ourselves homeless in Michigan lol.
I am super flexible so we looked up an motel and figured we would just make it our home unless something else came up. The first motel we went to Jason put a big fat veto on lol. Something about it being way to sketchy or something. So we tried another one further north. It was better and it had a complimentary breakfast and a laundry mat! I could totally make that work. Just use the kitchen there for making meals and I could even wash all the clothes at the laundry mat. We would be a bit crowded with only one room but we were craving some family time anyways right! Sadly all the breakfast was was coffee and the laundry mat was broken. But at least we had a home that felt safe.
The next morning we went to church and it felt SO right. I instantly fell in love with everyone in the ward. We had felt that for some reason we were supposed to do a rotation and our 6 month core in Michigan. Even though I really really REEEAALLY wanted to stay closer to family. Showing up on Sunday and feeling so at peace with everything confirmed to me that we were really supposed to be there. The Corlesses even invited us over for games and dinner that night. How did they know we looved playing games...and only had leftover pizza waiting in the motel for dinner lol?
After church a brother came up to me and said that they have a basement that would have space for us and a kitchen that we could rent!! On Monday we checked it out. Heather, Mark and their kids were SOO awesome...and we moved everything in that night. They seriously were such LIFE SAVERS!!
Everything after that was much more low key and yet crazy and fun. Jason loved the rotation because of how they teach and actually care about the residents, the schedule, and what they focused on in the hospital. I had so much fun with Heather and the other girls in the ward! We checked out the Apple Cider farms, had a bow making party, and had plenty of dance parties on their new wood floor :). I loved having little girls around that I could teach dance to, and Aiden had a "twin" that he could be a partner in crime with. Mark...excuses me "The Mark" got us all tickets to the Tigers game. ;) That one's for you Mark and Heather ;). Heather seriously became a second sister to me. We are both totally crazy and love to sing and dance. She helps in YW, and that month we brainstormed ideas on how to change the words to the song "I'm all about that base" to "I'm all bout being chaste" hahahaha I still have the words to that song stuck in my head! I'm so excited to be able to go back in December to my friends there and "settle down" till May.
Oh and we actually have everything lined up Apartment-wise for when we get back.
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